JUST WANTED/NEEDED TO VENT

[PIXIEW]

STREAKERS!!! I JUST WANTED TO VENT I HAVE STEAM ROLLING OUT MY EARS I WAS TO HAVE MRI, CT SCAN ETC AND GET THERE ,WHICH IS A MAJOR EFFORT TO GET ME ANYWHERE ! I AM SO HONESTLY (NOT JUST USING AS PHRASE) MY TEMP AT LOWEST 102.8 THAT WAS ONCE SINCE 3/16 OTHERS GO UP THE HIGHEST 103.9 THAT WAS 36 HRS STRAIGHT ! I GET SCARED THEN SINCE THE HIGH TEMPS IVE GOT HEADACHES SO BAD I CRY IF TV IS ON ,MY EYEBALLS ARE DARK CREAMY GROSS NOT WHITE AND SOOOOOO MUCH MORE BUT WITH NEW INSURANCE THATS NOT ENOUGH TO ADMIT ME WITH ALL MY OTER DISEASES!!!!! GOD I GET THERE TODAY AND AFTER 45 MINUTES OF FORCING CONTRAST DOWN THROAT IN TUBES THEY COME IN AND GO.. WE DID NOT PUT YOU DOWN FOR THE IMAGING TESTS SO NO ROOM UNLESS I SET FOR HOURS WAITING/HOPING THERES A CANCELATION ~OMG I JUST HAVE A APPT TO SHOVE SHIT(SORRY I SWORE ) DOWN MY THROAT AND THATS IT I THE MEDICAL FEILD HAS GONE TO HELL 100% I AT LEAST RATED THEM AT 98% BAD BEFORE LMAO KNOW I HAVE TO GO BACK TOMORROW 21ST FOR I AM SCHEDULED NOW AND TO TOP IT OFF AND THEY WENT TO LOAD ME UP TO LEAVE HOSP. YES IT WAS WINDY BUT HOLD ON TO THE FRIGGEN DOORS... WHAM SLAM OUCH THEY LITTERLAY (I SURE SPELLED WRONG ) SHUT MY ENTIRE FOOT IN THE VAN DOOR MOTHER TRUCKERS... ITS 10 TIMES THE SIZE AND DO YA THINK THEY TOOK ME BACK FOR XRAY RIGHT NOT I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN ITS NOT FUNNY IF I COULD EVEN CRAWL I WOULD PROB. GO POSTAL BUT WHO KNOWS! OK STREAKERS I AM TRULEY TRULEY I MADE A POST JUST SO I COULD YELL , I KNOW YOU ALL HAVE YOUR MAJOR SHARE OF PROBLEMS AND YOU DONT POST AND B**** SO PLEASE JUST TAKE ME LIKE A GRAIN OF SALT IF I DONT GET IT OUT AND JOKE,LAUGH ETC... GOD ONLY KNOWS WHAT I WOULD DO!!!!!! LOVE U ALL LIKE FAMILY U KNOW THAT TAKE CARE AND HAGN/HAGD

 

[judyb57]

Sorry you are going through such a hard time Pixie. I hope the tests they run tomorrow will give you some answers

 

[sorcer3ss (RETIRED)]

No wonder you were mad, making you drink that horrible stuff then cancelling, hope all goes well tomorrow Pixie.

 

[CareyG]

So sorry Pixie!! And dont ever apologize for venting here, thats what we are here for!! We are your friends and care about you. ​

 

[vixen777]

Hope everything gets better Pixie~

 

[missmichelle]

Hope everything gets better for you pixie!

 

[weesie]

Sorry to hear pixie,

Just don't disappear again.......

I hope things get better

 

[PIXIEW]

STREAKERS FOR ALL YOUR KIND WORDS AND weesie HUN I DID NOT PLAN THAT "Just don't disappear again......." YOU HAVE ESP~ I GOT MY RESULTS BACK AND HAVE NOT FELT GOOD ENOUGH TO GOOGLE AND READ UP BUT I GO TO A HERAT SURGEON TODAY I WONT SLEEP A WINK I KNOW THAT IVE HAD THE SAME CT SCAN DONE 3 TIMES THIS YEAR AND THIS TIME, MY DOCTOR SAID YOU ARE AT THE MOST FRAGILE STATE,I HAD THE WORST REACTION TO DRINKING THE CONTRST (WELL TUBE DRINKING)I AM STILL HAVING SEVERE REACTIONS TO IT AND I WAS TOLD MY LEFT ILIAC ARTERY SHOWED UP CLOGGED AND STENTS ,TO BE HONEST I CANT BEGIN TO TELL YOU I TRULEY PASSED OUT OVER WHELMED? & WITH THE WORDS THEY USE I HATE WHEN THEY USE MEDIACAL WORDS NO ONE UNDRSTANDS AND THEN I HEARD WORDS Aortic aneurysm , I LOST ALL MOST 2 HANDS WORTH OF FAMILY MEMBERS FROM THAT ! I AM SCARED SCARED SCARED I AM SO TIRED , NO APPETITE AND THE WHITES OF MY EYES ARE CREAMY GRAY AND IVE HAD MEDICAL TESTS AT THE LEAST 17 TESTS JUST IN MARCH ! MY HUBBY DOES NOT KNOW YET I DID NOT TELL HIM HE HAD ANOTHER SPIKE IN HEART TEST AND ALSO FOUND A SPOT IN HIS KIDNEY AND LIVER & I CANT TALK TO MY ONLY CHILD SHES PREGO (DUE ON MY BDAY ST WAS ON MY HUBBYS BDAY) THATS REALLY FREAKY BUT FREAKY COOL ,I CANT TALK TO HER SHE IS HAVE'IN A REAL BAD GO AROUND THIS TIME AND JUST BECAME DIABETIC LAST MONTH ~ I WILL STOP I AM SPRRY I TRULEY AM I HAVE NO OINE TO TALK TO NOR TELL THE TRUTH TO W/O A RISK OF CAUSING HARM TO THEM !!!!! AND WHAT I TOLD HAD NOT EVEN REALLY TOUCHED ON ALL THEY FOUND ON TEST! I HOPE I WILL BE BACK ON TOMORROW TO LET YA KNOW E.THING I JUST KNOW I DONT HAVE A GOOD GUT FEELING ON THIS ~~~ I DONT THINK I HAVE EVER FELT SO SCARED AND SO ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU FOR PUTTING A SHOULDER OUTTHERE EVEN THAT I GUESS I FORCED IT MAN OH MAN I AM SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TAKE CARE AND GOD BLESS YOU AL < MAY I ASK FOR JUST A FEW PRAYERS PLEASE ? LOVE YOU AS FAMILY PIXIE

 

[CareyG]

So sorry you are having so many medical problems Pixie!! I will be praying for you hon! ​

 

[judyb57]

Hang in there Pixie, you are one strong woman and will get through all this :arose

 

[PIXIEW]

HI TO MY STREAK FAMILY: I JUST THOUGHT I WOULD TELL YOU A FEW THINGS I FOUND OUT AND I CANT GO INTO GREAT DETAIL FOR I AM STILL TRYING TO PROCESS SO MUCH OF THIS AND FIND AWAY TO TELL MY HUSBAND IN NEXT 24 HRS I AM TRULEY NOT DOING WELL !!!! MY FAMILY DR AND HEART DR SPENT MOST ALL FRIDAY FIGHTING WITH MEDICAL INS THEY WONT LET ME BE ADMITTED (OF COURSE I CAN GO AND EVERY RED CENT I WOULD OWE ) THEY SAID IF I FLAT OUT HAVE A HEART ATTACK
THEN THEY WILL ALLOW ME TO BE ADMITTED!!!! THIS IS FIRST TIME I HAVE BEEN AWAKE SINCE I GOT OFF COMPUTER AFTER MY LAST POST~ I DONT SLEEP THATS MORE SLLEP THEN IVE HAD IN A MONTH SWEAR TO GOD I ALNALLY PASSOUT ABOUT 8-10 AM AND UP BY NOON OR 12:30 pm IF LUCKY . THEY ARE GOING TO PUT THAT ? IN MY LEG THAT WILL GO UP AND SHOW ALL MY ARTIRIES CANT REMEMBER THE NAME AND ALSO THEY HAVE A REAL BAD FEELING THIS ENTIRE TIME (AT MIN. .3 MONTHS ) BLOOD FLOW HAS BEEN CUT OFF TO 3/4 OF MY PELVIC AND STOMACH AREA AND THAT WOULD I GUESS CAUSE THIS PAIN THAT NOTHING TAKES AWAY AND IN TURN WORRING IF CANT REMEMBERWORD ( LIKE GANG GREEN ) HAS STARTED IN THOSE AREAS FROM WHAT EVER HEY SAW BUT I CAN BELIEVE THAT FOR THERE ARE SO MANY TIMES I SWEAR TO GOD I GET THIS SMELL LIKE SOMETHING HAS CRAWLED UP ME AND DIED i AM I WENT TO GRAPHIC ON YOU AND DID NOT INTEND TO!!!!! YOU ARE MY :friends AND I LOVE SO MANY OF YOU LIKE FAMILY.......I I AM SO SCARED I SAY TO MUCH OUT OF ALL I HAVE MADE IT THROUGH ALL THE YRS WOW 10 YRS STARTING MY MS~ I DONT HAVE THE FIGHT IN ME AND I AM UNDER NOURISHED SO BAD I LOOK BOLEMIC ( SP ? ) I FEEL IT SO SO STRONG I WONT MAKE IT THROUGH A MAJOR OPERATION THERES NO WAY~~~~~~ I DONT WANT TO DIE,I ALWAYS THOUGHT I WAS AT PEACE WITH IT AND I AM NOT!!!! BUT I CANT/WONT LIVE IN THIS KIND OF PAIN ITS THE MST UNGODLY PAIN IVE EVER FELT ,YOU WOULD SO UNDERSTAND IF YOU EVEN JUST GOT A GLANCE AT ME! I AM VERY VERY SO I WILL SAY GOODNIGHT TO ALL ! I PRAY I DID NOT OFFEND,MAKE UNEASY ETC... ANYONE THAT READS THIS I WAS TELLING 100% TRUTH BUT PROB. TOLD TO MUCH, I PROMISE IT WONT HAPPEN AGAIN ! SWEET DREAMS WITH A ANGEL ON YOUR PILLOWS STREAKERS

 

[sorcer3ss (RETIRED)]

Hang in there Pixie, I really hope that things pick up for you soon hon

 

[judyb57]

I have had many heart caths done, pixie, they are very safe!

 

[missmichelle]

Sending good thoughts and prayers. I know how scary it can all be and we are here for you.

 

[queenmap]

Pixie, sorry you have to go through all of this pain and scare. I will pray for you and sending some huge hugs as well. Feel better soon hun!

 

[PIXIEW]

judy my biggest fear is the pain amd on my one side IT LOOKS LIKE I AM 5 MONTHS PREG. AND THEN IN FRONT ON OTHER SIDE ITS FLAT I HAD BEEN TELLING THEM FOR 3-4 MONTHS ON THIS ISSUE AND THEY DONT LISTEN YOU CANT EVEN TOUCH MY KIDNEY ON SWOLLEN SIDE I FEEL LIKE E HAVE BEEN BEATEN LIKE I SAID IN FIRST POST THERE IS SO SO SO MUCH THAT CAME OUT OF THIS I HAVENT EVEN SAID 1/2 IYS SO OVER WHELMING AND SHOCKING GODS TRUTH~~~ ALL FOR BEING HERE I AM ON LESS EACH DAY NO ENERGY AT ALL! TAKE CARE JUDY AND ALL STREAKERS GOING TO CHECK IN ON CONTEST THEN I AM DONE judyb57,sorcer3ss,CareyG,vixen777,missmichelle,weesie AND Queenmap on being so caring it means a lot to me SORRY IF I FORGOT ANYONE I DID NOT MEAN TO

I have had many heart caths done, pixie, they are very safe!

 

[sorcer3ss (RETIRED)]

Yes, just take it easy Pixie and pace yourself.

 

[precious_woman]

Awww... Pixie, honey... I am SO Sorry you are going thru all this!!!
I can relate, I have serious medical also. I KNOW how frustrating it is to ALWAYS be in pain or always feel sick!!

The medical field and coverage has gone to H#*&! For gods sake I was determined permanently disabled in 2004 and I got a call that they were "reviewing my case to see if I could work"!! My conditions are progressive and with each day/month/year I get worse and worse!! Thankfully the depression that a disability causes gave them enough reason to consider me "still disabled"... but seriously!! I damn near had a heart attack when they said "your mobility has improved" and I said "my mobility has improved because I am on morphine 24/7". Truth is, NO ONE is going to hire someone who is "under the influence" 24 hours a day! I am still in pain WITH these meds! The medical care we get NOW is not up to par for our pets!! They get better care than we do! our coverage... don't even get me started! I feel for you hon... I really, really do!!
Please know that you are always in my prayers and if you EVER need someone to talk to or vent to you have my email or you can PM me here!! Hang in there hon!!

 

[PIXIEW]

precious_woman that means a lot and it is so so very true!!!!!! i had appt today with surgeon ,insurance is bulking at the issues at hand and trying to drag there feet! My Dr. said (exact words ) YOU DONT HAVE TIME TO HAVE IT DRAWN OUT ITS THAT BAD I SHOULD HAVE SURG. ON HEART NOW I HAVE TO COME UP WITH 6,872.56 THE DAY OF OPERATION TO JUST PAY HEART DR ~NOW IF THATS WHAT A PERSON NEEDS TO HEAR AND NOT HAVE MORE PROBLEMS! I TOLD DR AT THE RATE MIGHT AS WELL START DIGGING! SERIOUSLY IN MY SHAPE WHO HAS THAT JUST LAYIN AROUND, I AM CALLING 2 PEOPLE AND ASKING FOR HELP IT THAT GOES NO WHERE I WILL JUST COUNT MY EVERY DAY AS LUCKY ( AS I DO ANYWAYS ) THE OPERATION WITH MY "FRAGILE " STATE HAS MORE ODDS AGAINST ME I ALL MOST THINK I WOULD BE BETTER OF NOT DOING IT GOT SOME SERIOUS THINKING TO DO ~I DONT HAVE A DEATH WISH BY FAR IVE JUST FOUGHT REALLY REALLY REALLY HARD AND LONG ........SO MAYBE ITS TIME FOR SPIRIT IN THE SKY THATS 1 OF MY SONGS I LOVE IT! TRULEY DID NOT MEAN TO BRING ANY ONE DOWN JUST THOUGHT I WOULD FILL ALL IN ON WHATS GOING ON AND I PRAY ITS NOT MY POSTS GIVING SOMEONE ISSUES THATS THE LAST THING I WANT OR NEED I LOVE MY STREAK FAMILY AND SURE DONT MEAN/TRY TO HURT OR OFFEND ONE , IWAS/AM SCARED OF POSTING AFTER I READ THE POST!! PLEASE ONE OF THE BOSS LADIES TELL ME IN PM IF I AM BECAUSE THATS NOT HOW I WANT ANY OF MY DAYS LEFT TO BE LIKE BE IT A DAY OR A 1000 DAYS ONLY 1 PERSON KNOWS WHEN MY TIME IS UP! LOVE YOU ALL AND AS ALWAYS PRAYING FOR YOU ALL FOR GOOD LUCK AND GOOD/BETTER HEALTH AND AM

 

[sorcer3ss (RETIRED)]

It makes me so sad to hear that you need cash up front to get medical treatment in the US, here you are treated even if it means waiting in a queue, but of course the most serious always get pushed to the front. I wish it was different for you all in the US.