MY DEAR STREAK FAMILY!!! I REALLY HATE COMING IN HERE AND POSTING FOR IT MAKES ME FEEL SO HELPLESS WHEN I CANT FIX THINGS!! BESIDES MY HUBBY BATTELING SOME VERY SERIOUS MEDICAL ISSUES I AM GOING DON HILL SO QUICK THIS PAST WEEK HAS JUST WENT DOWN FASTER THEN THE LAST YEAR WITH HEALTH I AM SO SO TIRED OF BEING AND IN PAIN! THERE IS NOT A FRICKIN THING OUT THERE THAT WILL TOUCH MY PAIN! I SURE COULD USE A :angel OR 2 FOR TO TOP THAT OFF THERE WAS A KNOCK ON DOOR AND NURSE GOT IT TODAY! IT WAS SHERIFF WAS HANDED PAPERS MY HOME OF 25 YEARS WILL BE SOLD "SOON" MY GOD THEY DONT GIVE YOU ENOUGH TIME TO PACK LET ALONE WE HAD BEEN PAYING GOOD OLE COUNTRYWIDE/ BANK AMERICA PAYMENTS THAT WE HAD SET UP WITH THEM TILL OUR LOAN MODIFICATION WAS DONE LETS SEE THIA STARTED IN DEC 2009 AND THEY HAD ALL DOCS BEFORE DEC 30TH !! I REALLY DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IVE DONE WRONG SO BAD IN LIFE TO BE PUNISHED OVER AND OVER!! I SWEAR I HAVE NEVER HURT ANYONE ON PURPOSE AND THE FEW I DID I MADE SURE I SAID HOW SORRY I WAS I HAVE ALWAYS SAID I CAN DIE IN PEACE KNOWING THIS BUT I MUST BE MISSING SOMETHING FOR I HAVE FILLED YOU ALL IN ON A LOT BUT TO BE HONEST SINCE IVE STARTED POSTING ABOUT MY LIFE YOUVE ONLY HEARD 1/4 OF THE HELL I HAVE BEEN THROUGH MEDICALLY AND LIFE BUT I CANT TELL YOU ALL FOR THATS HONESTLY HOW I ENDED UP ALL ALONE CEPT HUBBY THE FRIENDS AND FAMILY I HAD MY ENTIRE LIFE GOT SCARED OFF AND WAS JUST IN AWE OF EVERYTHING HITTING ME SO I AM NOT ABOUT TO SCARE AWAY THE ONLY FRIENDS I HAVE LEFT!!! BOTTOM LINE I NEED PRAYERS 10 FOLD I CANT PRAY ANYMORE I GUESS AFTER THIS WEEK MY FAITH AS FELL BY THE WAY SIDE AND I HONESTLY WISH GOD WOULD TAKE ME SO MY HUBBY WOULD NOT BE IN FINANCIAL RUITNS OVER THE COST TO CARE FOR ME !! AND I CANT HANDLE THE HURT IN IS EYES EVERYSAY WHEN I CAN NO LONGER FAKE OR HIDE PAIN IT KILLS HIM AND THEN HE FEELS HE HAS FAILED ME!!! ITS A NON STOP UGLY UGLY CIRCLE OF LIFE FOR ME AT THE TIME I SEE NO LIGHT AT THE END !!!! I DID NOT MEAN TO BRING YOU ALL DOWN I AM SORRY I JUST HAVE NO ONE TO TALK TO !! PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR MY HUBBY TO MAKE IT THROUGH ALL THIS I DONT WANT THE PRAYERS FOR ME I WANT THEM FOR THAT VERY SPECIAL MAN IVE LOVED FOR 26 YEARS!! THANK SO MUCH STREAKERS :friendsTO THE END