Send prayer to Virginia, my Mom. She's not doing well. I almost called the ambulance last night, but my sister came over and we got her changed.
She's 85 and I feel and I'm with her almost everyday she's fading. My sister is in complete denial. Right now it's just Teri and I. Teri works full time, good thing for me I'm off right now. I am totally depressed, try not to show it to my Mom- my sister on the other hand thinks yelling at someone can cure them- like I said she's in complete denial. I asked her to scream the cancer outta me- and my Bi-polar. I was depressed, but when I started seeing my shrink- he said- Liz- your Bi-polar. It started when my mom got really ill.
Last night I had flash-backs of the way she was when she had the sub-durial hemorage. At the time I said let her go. Asked the Dr.'s IF she survived what would be quality vs. quantiy?? The Dr.'s looked at me as if I was the only sane one in the room.
I'm going to tend to her now. We are the closest and I love her soo much. She asked me yesterday why they didn't let her die?? I told her I was her advicate but was out voted. I wanted to put this here before I go take care of her, I don't want her to see me cry.
It's not only affecting her, I am totally depressed and at times suicidle. Thinking thats my only way out and then my sister will HAVE to do something QUICK.. I've been here 8-9 months and it's killing me too. So if you can throw prayers or vibes for both of us, they would be more then welcome.
The house is "falling down". It's soo hard to stay upbeat. And this should not be a "pissing contest" between Teri and I!!!
Love and Light, Liz
P.S- you know I can't spell for S h i t- but I know you get my drift!
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She's 85 and I feel and I'm with her almost everyday she's fading. My sister is in complete denial. Right now it's just Teri and I. Teri works full time, good thing for me I'm off right now. I am totally depressed, try not to show it to my Mom- my sister on the other hand thinks yelling at someone can cure them- like I said she's in complete denial. I asked her to scream the cancer outta me- and my Bi-polar. I was depressed, but when I started seeing my shrink- he said- Liz- your Bi-polar. It started when my mom got really ill.
Last night I had flash-backs of the way she was when she had the sub-durial hemorage. At the time I said let her go. Asked the Dr.'s IF she survived what would be quality vs. quantiy?? The Dr.'s looked at me as if I was the only sane one in the room.
I'm going to tend to her now. We are the closest and I love her soo much. She asked me yesterday why they didn't let her die?? I told her I was her advicate but was out voted. I wanted to put this here before I go take care of her, I don't want her to see me cry.
It's not only affecting her, I am totally depressed and at times suicidle. Thinking thats my only way out and then my sister will HAVE to do something QUICK.. I've been here 8-9 months and it's killing me too. So if you can throw prayers or vibes for both of us, they would be more then welcome.
The house is "falling down". It's soo hard to stay upbeat. And this should not be a "pissing contest" between Teri and I!!!
Love and Light, Liz
P.S- you know I can't spell for S h i t- but I know you get my drift!
XoXoXoX